♥"THE BLACK NOTE"♥

I HATE MYSELF

I'm a girl
from HeLL!!!
who doesn't know
what i really wanted to my life
and I hate myself for that.
I am getting treated
for depression with anti-depressants
but I cut myself
and I hate everything about me.
I see a friend everyday
but it doesn't help thier advice
just isn't working.
It's like everyone wants me to be
"Miss happy - love yourself even though your pathetic".
I feel constantly patronized.
I recently starting
to make friends and thier
so nice but I'm suspicious of them.
I'm nervous
and I'm just full of hatred.
I just want to tear myself apart.
Loads of rumors and gossip
have been going around about me.
People tend to judges me
even though I have done nothing wrong.
I know everyone
doesn't like me.
I sure thier
just laughing about me.
I'm sickening. I guess this isn't a question,
but how do I change?
How do I stop hating myself?


♥"BLACK NOTE FROM HELLGIRL"♥

To: The hell i care,

Hey! Mind this!!! !!!!!
This is me... i dont
really care anyway of what
you would think or say about me...
This is the real me...
dont judge me....
bcoz you dont know me that well...
just love me coz im real...
dont hate me if...
♥ if i love skull (icon)
♥ if i love stars
♥ if i love breaking rules
♥ i love black that much
♥ if i messing up with my hair
♥ if i messing up with my eyes
♥ if i cry that much
♥ if i cant mingle that much
♥ if i do not talk that much
♥ if i do not greet you oftenly
♥ if i always with my mirror
♥ if i messing up with my self
♥ if feels like i have my own world
♥ if i do not smoke
♥ if i do not drink
♥ if i do not making friends
♥ if i love doing jackass
♥ if i dont like many peole that much
♥ if i love being alone
♥ if i love something wierd
♥ if i love something gothic, punk or rock and roll
♥ if i can't be whatever you wanted me to be
♥ if i commit to many mistakes
♥ if i dont like being wrong
♥ if i dont like being ignored
♥ if i act like i'm a more smarter than i actually iam
♥ if i start fight
♥ if i get easily jelous
♥ if i brag you, bug you or getting you mad
♥ if i can hurt you physically
♥ if i can curse you in your face
♥ if i can tell you that i'm alot crazy than you
♥ if i making nonsense sometimes or something
that you hated most! coz i'm normal too,
just like you...
its just that we have our own perception and
belifes in life... just respect mines
and i'll respect yours...
just let me live my life and
everything will be alright!
okay? Apir!!! \m/,

By: HeLLdOLLMasTeR

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To all my long and lost friend or anyone here in friendster, add me in your friends list huh...!
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E-Add:
♥helldollmaster@hotmail.com
♥dollstarskullprincess@hotmail.com
♥prettyfarrahcute@yahoo.com
♥farrahlovesyou@yahoo.com
♥gothic_your_life@yahoo.com

# Who I Want to Meet:



♥Coal Chamber
♥SilverChalk
♥Cradle of filth
♥Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
♥Kill Switch engage
♥HIM
♥Bleeding Through
♥Deicide
♥Ill Nino
♥Slipknot
♥All that remains
♥Stone sour
♥Atreyu
♥Finger 11
♥Dashboard


And some female vocal

♥The Birthday Massacre
♥Arch Enemy
♥Saydie
♥Flyleaf
♥Amy Lee
♥Paramore
♥Avril